Series of lucid dreams, illusions and some metaphor
And if in a dream you found yourself a decade ago. Imagine this…
~ Who are you? ~ How come you look just like me? ~ I asked my version of the past
~ Well, I can’t explain how it is that we’ve met but I know I’m you in the future. I think it’s a dream. The last thing I remember is that I wanted to talk to some friend I met in your time and I figured out how to talk to myself ten years ago. Maybe we can take advantage of this meeting.
~ Wow, you look different, but you don’t look so different. And tell me, what happened to us?
~ Quite a lot of learning, and that’s appreciated. Let’s see what I can tell you. You will no longer continue with your church group’s spiritual retreats.
~ Oh, no? ~ So you’re married?
~ I feel like I’m open to something like this but things have changed. First I stopped looking for a woman to marry and I wouldn’t marry in the tradition you are experiencing, not in a religious way with terms I don’t share, nor do I expect to have children as a straitjacket to raise a family when you can be with your partner and make a home for two, even for a while I came to feel at home with myself. That’s what I can tell you.
~ Then you’re not who I am.
~ That’s the exercise I wanted to do by remembering things in your time. It’s almost like talking to me a few years ago. You see, in some time you’ll stop being a missionary, then you’ll go back to looking for work. Something happens in your group that makes you change your mind about groups, so no mission or more of that group. Then you try a group that has a connection with extraterrestrial information but lasts only a short time because you identify a pattern that you have found suspicious before and decide that you are not going to be in groups anymore for a long time. Then you begin to have a more spontaneous experience and although it may not seem like it, it gradually leads you to connect with your inner self while doing what you like externally. It is when you become an adult with this spiritual thing and you realize why life doesn’t treat you like a child, I mean that you discover that your thoughts and actions can have a greater responsibility than you imagined and no one else inside you is there to decide for you, it is clear that you have a Guide but it can’t be external. You can also forgive yourself for what you seem to do.
~ I don’t understand you. I have wondered if this mission leads me to meet myself, but I don’t see myself outside the group or religion. That thing you said about me liking alien information took place in my teens. Besides, I can’t believe I’ve changed so much and think that if I get married I’ll do it in a civil way and not even feel like having children. I also don’t see how I could get out of here if I left my life behind and feel less young to return to a normal life. You look like me but you can’t be.
~ Interestingly, I feel younger inside and I know you felt older at that time even when you were young. There are things that change, others perhaps not, like for example, that you still remember your first love from adolescence although she followed her own path and the years passed in the same way, well it’s not a torment either, above all because you find pleasure in yourself, even if the treacherous mind seeks to take away some moment of peace.
~ But I live that memory rather far away.
~ It’s because you’re too busy and you repress it, you forget that it was the main reason why you left everything behind, and it’s true that the sense of your mission helps you. One day you will feel that it is possible to have a partner who connects with you naturally, so you will not need a list of conditions and it is not about giving up your feeling. Although in every relationship there will be things to give up and agree upon, I now see that it is possible to experience something intense again, beautiful, genuine and with an expontaneous communion.
~ I’m trying to process it, but tell me, what did you want to talk to someone about in this context of your past?
~ At this moment you’re experiencing very interesting, not to say difficult things. This time you’ll be a few steps ahead and you’ll understand me one day if that means we were more like asleep, but everything is perfect. What I’ve realized is that not many in my time handle it, at least not openly and each according to how he can. I know you think you have a relationship with God but another thing is to access your essence and know that you are truly one with Him. Not exactly your identity, but your divine essence is in itself what many call God, or as some are beginning to call Him in my time, the Source.
~ That is heresy.
~ And to me that word is antiquated, insipid, though it confirms the programming against the inner truth and the true Guide.
~ I can’t believe what you’re saying. Don’t tell me I’ve moved on to new age things.
~ No, we did explore something, but that’s not what this is about. Those who promoted that word were in the same frame of reference you’re in, more of the same. The main author had links to a three letter agency of her time and her own agenda. I understand that for those who are deep in a religion everything else is new age, in any case there are things that get mixed up or confused and as I said you go outside of those movements but you will learn to discern and take something that serves. Now do you understand the exercise I am trying to do thinking of some friend?
~ But that’s no sense, if they live what I live, it’s absurd.
~ It’s true. But as I said, I have been a few steps ahead of the context you live in and even in my days, because when you leave that context you can find a greater expansion if your Guide has always been with you and continues with you. I have realized that there are things that could be revealed and it would be very hard for those friends if the blow came so suddenly. At least I have had several years to process it, but how would they take it to come to light that the god they have followed is questionable or that behind their institution they have found very dark links.
~ Wait. I think it’s been too much.
~ That’s why. I know that you resonated with many things and by identifying with a group you can lose your own identity. If the leader of your community starts to see things accepted that were previously unthinkable and that go against certain principles, do you think he’d swallow it all?.. I can’t believe that everyone is absolutely blind when they see those things, when in the attempt to unify religions they understand the implications for movements like yours by mixing things that would be scandalous or unacceptable. Wouldn’t you call that heresy?
~ OK, explain yourself.
~ A pandemic is currently underway. With my research, some facts and deductions, could be an agenda to reduce the population and secondly control the remaining population in which a technology mogul would be involved. But a patriot alliance has been standing up and turning against them every move of the dark side, which has even had the most important means in its favor. Then you find that there is a deep state behind the governments of the major nations, and therefore, globally. At the top of the pyramid is a group that connects to some unkind aliens, of which there are others that are like demonic entities from another dimension, or density to be exact. There you connect the religion thing, controlled from the top by dark things, in particular the one known as the company. Where the power is, control has been exercised, some kings, the world bank, military power, the drug and vaccine industry, medicine and science, education, the most important media, currently they are also trying to do it with the Internet but things are still leaking out that reach the public.
~ That’s too much fiction, even to be a dream.
~ You’ll understand someday that fiction in many cases can fall short. Many in my time don’t know that there’s at least one citadel on Mars and it’s something that’s about to come out. And you say well, from the Buddha’s perspective this is all an illusion, like a dream.
~ Then you became a Buddhist.
~ No, although we may have met him in some incarnation.
~ Do you believe in reincarnation now?
~ I know that in the old days you came up with this. I’m not sure. I can say that in the practical sense you can talk about reincarnation but if you feel that beyond this presentation you are spirit, where would that be? Bodies would still be buried but what you really are does not die and is not a body. Let’s say it may be easier to talk about avatars.
~ You say many things but I’ve felt that there’s something eternal in me. And now you’ll tell me that you also knew Jesus?
~ I don’t have those memories to give you data, but it’s possible.
~ But then what’s going on?
~ We’re overcoming the knot in the plot and on the verge of some important disclosure, but as I told you that not many people know. There are things that will be confirmed when the day comes, and we don’t know what will happen with religions either, but the balance is already tipped towards a renewed and positive world. At best, if the veil is removed and all things come to light, there will be no point in sustaining the untenable. It all depends on patriotic allies who sympathize with a president highly criticized by the media, but above all on people who understand their divine nature and connection to the Source, and can face this with a consciousness, communicating Light from their heart, eradicating fear with the force of Love, and whatever needs to be forgiven doing so from within as well, but the corrections will continue to correspond with the world and many deceived ones, who have played their role on the dark side, would be imprisoned. Even who is at the head of the institution you follow. I think it will be possible to understand that history has been changed. Have not left much about Jesus or his beloved wife. It would also be possible an economic reset with new rules of the game that with the months would bring prosperity and a new dollar would soon be in circulation. Recently the ex-president of the north, who is active in your days, is the cause of a bigger scandal than Watergate, have tried to hide it and divert attention but even if they gain time it is practically impossible.
~ If you tell me like that, I’d doubt that you’re part of my friends.
~ If I tell you it’s because we’re essentially the same. I remember that you mean “the other is Christ” and it’s still valid in the best sense.
~ I must say that something relieves me because in truth many times I feel like throwing in the towel but I’ve decided to continue and I feel support here. If I came to believe you, I wouldn’t know how to leave the mission or the group that has been like a second family.
~ You’ve had a girlfriend with whom you’ve decided to stay longer than necessary because she’s treated you very well. You could not stay there out of gratitude by leaving your heart prisoner. Did you not conclude that it was not enough for you to sustain that relationship?
~ Yes, I remember.
~ What if that support you feel now becomes relative when you express your decision to withdraw? I know you and you can’t remain divided and against your feelings when you find you can’t fit in there. It’s like when an ice cube starts to melt or is pulled out of the bucket. I told you before that something will happen, rather, several things chained together, so you don’t have to worry and I’m not asking you anything but I’m telling you something so that you can be aware. Now you can also remember this and know that you have that opportunity.
When I woke up I could only laugh at how difficult it seemed to talk to myself and that was less difficult than I could imagine.